ironic female behavior

I need a lover
but if I fuck
I then need love
when love is offered
I need commitment
if the lover becomes a partner
I need security and peace
if security comes with it brings boredom
when boredom comes
I need freedom
when freedom is fought
you are left with yearning
yearning is a step away from depression
depression triggers solitude
solitude accentuates masturbation....
I need a lover.