Many things have changed in my life, that make it so much better, so much easier, so much pleasing...
They go from little, tiny things to big important life changing things but to me they are all meaningful.
and here are some of them:

1) I accept my hair, and almost have learned to love it. Its BIG, and CURLY, almost nobody has it like me, people like it or hate it, it can magnitize men, it scares women sometimes, a true lover gets lost in it, and never wants to escape from it.... this is a big discovery.

2) I finally have figured out what products to buy. ALL of them Shampoo, mousse, Conditioner, Hair dye, lotions, juice, salad dressing, soap, toothpaste, contacts, face scrub, perfume, makeup, I mean the whole works, no more spending money on products I hate or that do something harmful to my body, and have to throw them away brand new. No more wasting my money. I'm free.

3) I'm a 25 year old woman, I feel like a woman, I think like one, when I see myself in the mirror I know who I am, and what I want to do, what I want to eat, how I want to dress, what I want to buy, what I like, what I dont like, what I can learn to like, I accept my flaws and my virtues, I LIKE MYSELF, I like what I get up everyday to do as a job, I like the way I make my money, I like the way I spend my money, I'm a happy person because of this.

4) I'm on the contraceptive patch. No more relying on men to put on a condom and having to beg, no more taking expensive contraceptive pills or the aftermorning pill. I feel with so much power of my own sexuality. I like it.

5) After so many years wasted, and ignoring friends advice (especially my dancer friends) I have discovered "tampons". They were all right WHAT was I thinking? it does makes all the difference. I'm a tampon girl and proud of it.

6) I love salads, I love soups, I love drinking water, it finally happened I became my mother...

7) I have stopped counting lovers, I dont care about figures, I dont care I have forgotten some of them, I remember who I have to remember, who I will always remember. I can sincerely say I dont give a damn anymore for the ones who I will forget or for how many others I may have, or for how I will answer to the question of... and you, How many have you had? and have no real answer. I like this, I like this a lot.

8) I heal faster from a broken heart. Life is too short to sit and feel sorry. "Life is a cabaret" and "parties weren't made to last".

9) I have had sex with 2 different men in one night, and not felt a bit sorry for it. I have decided not to make love to other men that I would of loved to made love to, just to keep the sweet memory of yearning. This makes me smile often.

10) I'm ready to expand myself like a spider, I'm certain I will be a good wife, a good caring mother, a peaceful woman in a town making her life and taking care of her family and her job, just NOT YET, NOT NOW. There still a long road ahead, and Im excited about walking slowly through it...

cheers
paz